Thank God that we saved our relationship once more. I thought it would be the ending of our good relationship. Well, now I believe that love is omnipotent. No matter how many difficulties and misunderstandings a relationship has, as long as you love each other fervently, love will always standout.

It's our second year and seventh month of being together as a superior lovers, and I am certain that we'll be stronger and happier each time passes by. If barrier comes again, we just hold each other's hands and face the opposition with great confidence that we would win the game...

Glimpse of my father...

This picture was taken last month in our house. I really love this. It makes me remind of the days when I had no reason to be lonesome, when all I had was a great happiness in my heart. How I miss my father so much... What more could I ever wish for?

I have a great faith now that I would see the sun rise once more in the future. My daddy would finally follow his heart, and would stay where his real family is... I am looking forward to that...

What am I living for?

The light that I'm seeing is vague and latent. Fear enveloped the wholeness of my being. Am I ready to die or not? What if I am in front of God at this moment, would he accept me as his child or I would be denied, because of my sins?

Earthquake struck me fews day ago. I called God for a sudden, because of a fear that it was the ending of my life. I called his name many times, which I didn't summon for so long. Too late huh? I didn't want to regret the actions I made for myself, but yeah I did... It was not too late anyway.

If I had the security by being a Christian, or by just being a follower of Christ, then why my heart is filled with fear, love, and pain knowing I am not definitely a born again in deeds.

If my life would be ended tonight, I wish that God would extend it in a little longer. I want to die, when I already served him with all my might and strength. When I could leave everything for his sake, and when he's the only one I am living for.

This is just my only wish, to live and die for a cause...

Story continuation... (work in progress...)

“How a luscious sweet honey could turn sour? It’s impossible.
I have done all my efforts to forget the sweetness of this flower; to ignore its beauty and its unforgettable fragrance, because in the end, I would be caught to be trapped to my sweetest death. But how can I leave something that gives me happiness? A tender bliss that always gives me hopes a so-called heaven in that regard.”

She has spoken the words of regrets while she talked to her daddy. She thought she made a mistake, but was mistaken. Sometimes men want to change their mind. They want to go back from the start, and alter the decision that has just made.

Her daddy held her hands and talked.

“Baby listen, it is certain in your heart that you have doubts. If you know something is not meant to be, the pursuit of this thing is useless. If the honey has turned sour once, will it not certainly turn sour once more? Once honey has turned sour, it is never sweet again. To address a possibility you did not mention. . . You are young, and you are beautiful, this is not your last opportunity to find the one who is right for you. There is time in the hourglass still. . . If you are sure of neither of your two choices, whether following your heart would perhaps give you contentment, or if you choose the right thing you may have a good future . . . then I will say this once more: There is time in the hourglass still, time has not ran out on you, there will be more opportunities to find the one who is right for you, but will there be other opportunities for a good future?”

How far could a true love go?

I’ve felt frigid inside. My heart beats faster, yet my mind tries to be in the right track. Well, I’ve tried to cope in this critical life. I only have two choices, to win the game or to lose it.

Love is like a bird. No matter how much you love someone; time would come that you have to set him free. I have smothered my very dearest one, because of the fear that he would cheat, that he would sin… but I’ve been awakened that I have no right to control someone’s life. Love is freedom. If he really loves me, he would not fly far, to the point that I would not be in the reach of his eyes.

Today I give him the decisions in our relationship. If we are really meant to be, time would tell...