Dead End...

I feel cold..my heart trembles with guilt and rejection, my mind spins like a wheel. I don't exactly know how to accept the action that I have already made. But I have no choice, but to accept how bitter life is. Yeah, right, "One false move, and one reckless decision can ruin everything..." Like my life now which suffers, because of human nature sins. I never know what I really want, if I want to be free or be imprisoned forever for the trends of existence. Who can help me, if the one that I need most does not even know I cared? Who will answer my heart calling, if the one I have loved with all my heart have suffered because of me...Who will recognize me, when I have caused great pain in the two most important man in my life? Please don't prolong my sufferings, oh Lord....